love-isundefined

2009-12-12T00:35:00.000-08:00

"Love is hard to get, but harder to let go."

承认

2009-11-29T22:08:00.000-08:00

曲名：承认

歌手：辛晓琪

专辑：我也会爱上别人的

承认吧对我还有好多感觉
只是你不敢再亏欠
要不就这样算了吧
就这样散了吧
至少你不会辜负了她

这些我都从无埋怨
先给爱的人并不可怜
早知道最后的结局多落的分离
我是有理由不死心塌地

我当然不恨你也从来不怨你
会试着不想你
虽然是曾经也是唯一
若要忘记两三年就可以
我打算不见你也决计不寻你
也已经不想你
只要是偶尔回首过去
在记忆里还有甜蜜能这样就可以

Friends?

2009-11-29T21:54:00.000-08:00

Friends? Can anyone tell me what are friends are for? Seriously, I can’t find the reasons for friends to exist in my life. Once said that friends lend helping hand when you are in need. But I can’t find a single one to help me out when I need help. Maybe what mummy said was right. She once told me this and I’ll always remember this: 有那么多朋友有什么用, 他们在你最需要他们的时候, 他们在哪里? 你每一次都尽量帮他们, 你在家里哭的时候他们谁知道. 讲义气, 你就是太讲义气, 所以没有人把你当成真正的朋友. 只会利用你, 你没有用处的时候就丢你到一边. Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between two or more people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as the exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for some, the practical execution of friendship is little more than the trust that someone will not harm them. But I dun feel any of these in my so called friends. Some might be my friends but when something happens, I’ll be chucked aside. I am really lost. To the extend that I dunno who I am now. Tired. Really very tired.

2009 conclusions.

2009-11-28T16:29:00.000-08:00

well...these few days when i never post, i guessed i've think thru alot. actually year 2009 is a fruitful year for me. lots of things happened unexpectedly. or i should say, if nothing of these happened, i won't be the me nw. i'm just gonna go back to the past, from january. yeah.

from 2008, i guessed the most drastic change i had was my reaction towards relationship. i'll always turn to become a coward. my first stead came from cchms. and he's you know who. zhiying. yeah. we were once together or maybe consider it not. ppl claimed that i was being tricked by him and his friends when we were together. i dun know and dun wish to know the actual fact. but for what i can say is that i've tried my best in being a gd gf but...nothing blossoms. maybe this is also the main factor why i became more more prone to crying. i mean like: he's my friend before but after that we can't even be friends. his buddies told me that he really liked me bt who knows? It might be another prank. i've been pranked so many times to the extend that i am still very dumb and gullible to listen to others. yeah. his friends even told me that he wanted a patch. but seriously, after that incident, i didn't really had much confidence in relationships.

maybe i shld have listened to my friends who asked me not to accept. maybe if i didn't, things would differ?! but since i've chose this path, i'll have to continue walking.

i dunno. maybe this is also the key factor on why my grades deteriorate. didn't really focus much in studies after that incident. but i've promised myself to zhen zuo and put the past behind me. he has siying and i'll lead my own life. i won't be in his life and neither he's in my life. we're just strangers, for what i know now.

den followed by joining the councillor board. i seriously dunno why ppl like to humiliate me and also discriminate me when i first joined ccl. even ppl from my section dun really welcome me. sometimes i really wonder if its wrong to be in ccl. i wasn't born to receive discriminations humiliation. i wasn't. luckily i had lovely friends like cherylmine seekim winnie that really treat me as their friend in ccl and that they also lend helping hands when in need. even when xinyu said that i was a fake councillor, they always stand by me and sponsoring me tissue paper when i cried after that, xinyu, if you see this post, i hope you won't get angry or anything because if it was you, i guess you would also get upset over it, maybe you treat it as a joke but fyi, i don't. i took it seriously. very seriously. i wanna be frank to tell you that i seriously gt hurt by what you've said that time because that was the line that really changed everything. so yeahhh...

now talking abt the next event. my news article on mj. well, yeah. he's a gd player for i could say. maybe feeling inferior all the time. lalala. thanks a lot huhh. for letting the sph take photo of you and letting me report abt you. i feel very bad when you told me ur coach used tat to suan you. sorry. but you must also hua bei fen wei li liang, to play better lahh...jiayous. you can de.

now another relationship prob. someone (whom i can't reveal identity) once told me that i have the tendency to like ppl who like someone else. and i went to verify and mostly true. yeahhh...i am nt gonna specify the couple but i am gonna say that one is the person that stay opposite annexe tuition centre. yeah. like a person gt prob mehh? i seriously dun get it why lahh...i know u prefer him with someone else but i didn't say i wanna be with him mahh. can't just stay by his side mehh?

and also disputes with friends. yeah. attempted to apologise but then they didn't bother. so i guessed that our friendship will end and won't blossom again. i just wanna say in case they see it here. i always treated u as a friend. regardless the past now or future, when you need help, if you need me, i'll definitely help de. :)

seekim, i think i've did my part le. like what you'e said in ur blog post dated august 28, you are nice to me. i know. speaking up for me in BN? i didn't know you did but thanks for that. although it didn't help out much. i guess. my relationship with others and u didn't improve. it became worse though. but luckily i managed to pull mine back with you. phew. you said abt reflection. so i reflected. and apologised, but nothing. so it takes 2 to clap. yeahh...and also what at the chalet. i didn't wanna quarrel or something. i've tried my best to avold them in chalet. reflection done. so did i pass? miss seet?

lastly the happiest one. yeah. i had 1 son and 1 daughter. you guys shld know who they are. they are lovely and nice. jiayous to both and love ya. :)

yeah. so basically, these are the main events that happened this yr. feelings are too confused to descibe. too much things happened to me. maybe lots of unhappy ones but one memorable o which is the last one. my juniors loved me. seekim cared for me. though the juniors didn't see me drop a single tear, but they stayed by me all the time when i needed help and comfort. thanks rouying likai for being wonderful friends juniors and children. must sponsor me tissue when i cry next time huhh. lastly i wanna say that i will buck up in 2010 and 2011. you all also yeahh.

2009-11-25T18:10:00.000-08:00

人生中有无数的遗憾，
最无法弥补的就是时间上的遗憾。
放的下的是曾经，
而放不下的是记忆，
美好的童年，
过了那么一次，就寻觅不得。
在现实生活中，
成人的我们整天忙忙碌碌，
像一群群没有灵魂的苍蝇，
喧闹着，躁动着，
听不到灵魂深处真诚的低语。
时光流逝，童年远去，
我们最终长大，
岁月洗刷掉了许多过往，
也消蚀了心底曾经拥有的那份童稚的纯真。
我们沉溺于人世浮华，
专注于利益法则，
甚至不顾心灵的沉重的桎梏，
可是愈如此，愈体验到人生意义的虚无。

如果可以给我一盏阿拉丁神灯，
我只要一个愿望，
就是回到那时，
回到那段放不下的记忆，
让我再次尝到那些，
或经历过的，或还来不及经历的，
却一样都无法释怀的，
最初的美好…

2009-11-20T21:22:00.000-08:00

heyhey. yeah. so after leaving BN i havent't said anything to them. so i'll just say it here. regardless whether they'll see it, at least i've really loved them :) here it goes:)

1. Ang Bee Hoon
~ hello! thanks for being such a nice classmate. although we only gt to be classmates for ten months plus, but hope you'll still rmb me. and you dun put ur watch @vball court le ar. next time i dun think gt chance that i'll take for you le:)

2. Chen Zhao Yan
~ hello! thanks for being a nice classmate. though i dunno you really well, we've been in BN for 2 yrs. but we'll still be classmates during chinese media studies. ur chinese very gd lehh...

3. Chin Xin Hui :)
~ Boss! very sad tht you're leaving cchms. especially me, your maid u nvr bring along. but never mind. i'll study very very hard to go there find you after o levels. must wait and rmb me. i confirm won't. and when u in tjc you dun find other maid huhh! or else when i go there i angry you. i promised you that i'll be happy de, and he's already behind my mind. so yeah...i'll miss you. and the times we're together.

4. Chua Cheng Cheng
~ Cheng! very sad tht you're leaving cchms. but you can't stay right? i'll miss you. you must ji de me. and gao hao ur chinese yeahh?! haha. lucks to you.

5. Denise Tan En Ci
~ SWAN! i can't change this bad habit of mine. so sorry huhh?! sigh that we can only be classmates for 2 yrs. but we confirm will meet. so loud and pro in singing. confirm can find you de. :)

6. Du Xin Yu Crystal
~DU DU! 虽然我们在接下来无法在同一班上课, 但我们还是同学, 媒体概论课的同学. My dad will fetch you if still can! so you won't get to forget me. :)

7. Estee Goh Pei Shan
~hello! yeah. dunno what to say to estee laehh...but yeah. i won't pon cca anymore. da zu zhang

8. Germaine Tan Liat Shin
~ yeahh...you're smart hardworking. but interact with others more okayy....:)

9. How Jia Ai
~ HELLO ITS ME AR! hehe....had alot of fun with you. although you're louder than me, i won't be jealous de. must gather and go out again okayy....jia yi dian luv :) i love you :)

10. Lee Ka Wing
~ always like gt guo jia with you sometimes then sometimes very close. next yr go rp must jiayous okayy...you wanted to go sota. gd luck:)

11. Liang Wen Jun
~i dunno what to say but its nice having you as a classmate

12. Low Wei Ting Jillian
~TABLE PARTNER! have fun with you that time. and zhong ji san guo :) although we won't be in same class next yr...i'll still rmb you. my lovely tb:)

13. Luah Xiao Wen
~ haha. got ur nicest unglam. hehe. yeah. i love that photo. so you're also studying nine sub huhh?! jiayous and i'll help promo ur photo:)

14. Ma Phyo Sandar Win
~ nothing much. had fun with you in BN :)

15. Mabel Neo Yu Qian
~ Yeahh. you cried umpteen times le huhh?! in BN. they didn't bully you mah...okay maybe they did but then must cheer up yeah?! must jian qiang. jiayous.

16. Ng Chu Ning Felicia
~hmm...my frc partner for 2 yrs. although we had some argument and misunderstanding last time, i guess we've like "patched"? haha. jiayous for ur nine sub with the prc-s.

17. Niu Wei Cen
~ You're cute:)

18. Oh Kai Rong
~heyhey kai rong. jiayous for nine sub huhh! must rmb me horr. i'll always msg you to ask abt my buddy de. :):) singing rocks

19. Seet See Kim
~ thanks for being my friend. i think its really hard on you. cos you'll have to be like discriminated by others. thanks for everything and sponsoring tissue for me when i cry. i'll promise nt to be so emo in sec three. you must jiayou ur 10 sub. must okayy...and i'll always find you when gt problem. but that time you can't say i fan le harr....cos its you ask me find you de :)

20. Tan Jia Xin
~ex ex table partner. i had alot of fun sitting with you right in front of the teacher's table and also eating during every lesson. you're smart cute and dance so pro. i jealous-ed. you're just next door. HM IT. but if appeal and successful, we might fen kai. and i had nice time with you in chongqing. love ya and jiayous

21. Tan Sing Yee
~SISTER-LONG. haha. yeahh...you shld know what i'm gonna say. so i'm nt gonna say much here. jiayous. love ya:)

22. Tan Winnie
~I also have to thank you. cos when i first joined SC when section five didn't really care and talked to me, you did duty with me although no one wanted to do with me. thanks ar. and also encouraging me alot with kim when i'm sad. you guys will always be the ones seeing that i'm upset. dunno why but yeahh....i really love you two:)

23. Tan Xin Yi (Celine)
~thanks for being my classmate:)

24. Tang Yu Li
~my twin! haha. had nice time celebrating bday with you this yr. haha. you didn't guess my gift. love ya and u must study hard ar! jiayous

25. Teoh Ean Xiang
~very sad tht you're leaving cchms. especially me, . i'll study very very hard to go there find you after o levels. must wait and rmb me. i confirm won't. jiayous:)

26. Toh Kai Xuan Jeanette
~tablr partner! very sad tht you're leaving cchms. especially me, your lovely table partner:)i'll study very very hard to go there find you after o levels. must wait and rmb me. i confirm won't. and must invite us go ur hse again horr.! :)

27. Valerie Ng Yong Wei
~haha. SUAN MEI. so we know each other for 14 years. haha. now diff class le. must jiayou and dun act like yunbin. later i see at night gt nightmare.

28. Wang Winnie
~thanks for being my classmate:)

29. Yang Nian Wei
~You're cute:) last with ling jun horr

30. Ding Hui Cong
~heyhey cutie. i'll miss you :) jiayous and hope to see u @jiang soon :)

31. Hung Zhi Yang
~thanks for being my classmate:)

32. Keith Zhang Bo Liang
~my fake hubby. thanks for being my classmate:) good luck for 9 sub:)

33. Lee Jing Yu
~thanks for being my classmate:) you're funny. dun so violent horr...jiaoyus

34. Tan See Kiang Nicholas
~thanks for being my classmate:)

35. Wang Zhen Yu
~thanks for being my classmate:) and sorry for last time :)

2009-11-15T18:04:00.000-08:00

转身离开你不会再回来

留下你我之间那一点空白

时间把我们俩分开

让我对你的爱渐渐变淡

曾经说过对你的爱永远不会离开

但也许因为最近所发生的一切使我明白

爱太深心更痛

放弃你对你我来说

也许是最好的选择

虽然放弃时我的心真的很痛很痛

但因为爱你所以放弃

让你快乐自己至少会好过一点

谢谢你

我知道你喜欢她

无论如何我是一点机会都没有的

但是我只想告诉你

希望你永远快乐

我会忘记

忘记我与你所有的回忆

忘记你让我笑让我哭的回忆

忘记自己因为你做了很多很多的事

忘记自己与你所有所有的记忆

我即将重新来过

过着属于自己的生活

我会将所有这些不堪回首的经历丢入大海

把难过抛开

也许在不久的将来

我们依然会见面

不过也许我的生命中不再有你的身影

最熟悉的陌生人就是你

BLOGGER

2009-11-14T23:53:00.000-08:00

Yes! i've changed back to blogger. cos i loved blogger and i stil couldn't get used to onsugar. and i've just came back from chongqing.

yep. so lets start from day one. ( 071109 )

went to the airport at abt eleven plus to have brunch with family and val's family. saw xiaowen. then we went to meet tcher. saw lots and lots of parents. and bye-ed daddy and mummy and i went inside. sat with xinhui and kairong on the plane. zi pai with yanling xinhui kairong. hehe. cool huhh?! yeah and it wasn't as cold as i thought when i reached chongqing. haha. jacket wasn't required. so we took bus back to ur hotel and dumped my luggage in the rm. i shared rm with mdm kee. so yeahh...den we went to have our dinner. 15 dishes. and the stupid fish head. xinhui and denise very bad lahh...purposely put the fish head on my plate...=.= then tcher went for meeting with the other teachers. and she DIDN'T give me the key. so i waited outside my rm for so long till teck hwee asked me go their rm first. yeah...so i went and just waited lorr...see 2 guys fight toilet very funny lehh...hahah:)

day 2 ( 081109 )

went to the 大足石刻. it was very tiring but funny. much fun taking ppl unglam. hehe...facebook has. nothing much actually happened that day.

day 3 ( 091109 )

went to school! the sch is big. ten times bigger than cchms lorr. and attended flag raising. the ppl there see us like aliens lorr...when it was flag raising, i was right in front and everyone was starting at me. so stupid. then i went to class 17. had lesson there and i had three buddies! two girls and a guy! i had pe lesson and i ran the fastest. because i was too cold to walk like them so i ran like hell. physics was LIGHT! i learn before so i knew how to answer what the tcher asked me. and i watched movie. sat with xuerui. super funny.

day 4 (101109 )

had maths lesson on congruence and similarity. english on how to make a banana milkshake. and i tell you all ar, my ft was very qian da. when i asked english tcher whether i can use phone to take photo for the project, she agree but that stupid ft came in and said that since i'm in chongqing i shld just obey the rules there. stupid can! i gt permission le why cannot use?! so pissed of la. after that i had tai ji lesson. super funny. had bball practice for the friendly match with erwai.

girls team: charmaine hsintung sirui yanling xinhui mabel

boys team: teckhwee yunbin kenny xuerui and i dunno who

day 5 (111109 )

last day studying in erwai cos they have exams the next day. so sad huhh?! the best thing was the bball friendly match. we won! super cool. but the guys lost. hehe. yeahh...and all of us were injured. the match was really damn funny.

and i had to write the emcee script. i mean the translation of hsintung's el script. and i write thru the night.

day 6( 121109 )

went shopping. so cool. i was unwell, i felt like puking throughout the entire, thanks hsintung charmaine kr jiaxin yunbin kenny and all others who kept asking whether i was feeling better. the lian huan was veryvery fun! i summarised the whole thing and my friends said that despite me nt feeling well, i said the whole thing nicely and also my buddies said my bu tong hua shuo de hen hao. haha. so nice lehh. and i gt lots of presents. thanks ah. love ya lots,

day 7 (131109 )

went to but alot of books. 10 chinese bks. super cool can! and i had great fun outside, and ate ma la huo guo. my lips went red like sausages. very disgusting lehh.

day 8 (141109 )

went out shopping again! damn cool can! and home sweet home.

2009-08-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

Me? My white lies and promises.. That's what you were all fucked about? What about your white lies and promises? You said, i'd never thought about your feelings, and even said i neglected you. Have you ever thought about my feelings? Have ever thought whether you've neglected me? Have you ever thought whether you've taken me for granted? After your court, you apologised saying that you were so stressed because of court that you kept giving me attitude, but now? Your attitude worsened. You'd always shout and scold me even though its just a small thing. And then when you've calmed down, you wouldn't even apologise! Yeah, i tried to hang with it, but until your smses yesterday, i was utterly disappointed. Promises, promises, promises. You said that it wasnt "valid" if i could do something and yet you had to promise me that you couldnt do that something. So you said that i had to promise you not to drink, yet you could drink happily with friends, got drunk several times, i remained as a mute, hello, I KEPT MY FUCKING MOUTH SHUT. Though its not mainly because of me wanting to fight back or what, but mainly because your words was sore to my eyes, which got my cheeks searing, i started crying, you hurt my heart badly ; I admit, yesterday i turn off my phone wanting you not to contact me, i couldnt tolerate it any further anymore, i didnt want the situation to worsen. Not because i wanted to hide like a dog because i started drinking, i drank nonstop, and was drunk, not to the extend i couldnt control myself. People kept on telling me to call you, saying you were worried and all, is that true? Or were you finding me so you could scold me and continue the quarrel much further? Breaking up? Sometimes i really want to ask you, are we weak in our hearts, our connection or our attitude? Breaking up isnt the solution to all problems, like that, we're running away from the problem. Everytime there's another camaraderie in our relationship, you just decide to end it all by just a break up. I know you cant tolerate it, but would that be as much as i could tolerate it..?

2009-08-18T04:51:00.000-07:00

again nt in good mood

hated recess duty today!

practically sucks.

forget it

2009-08-14T05:05:00.000-07:00

CHIONG-ED tution today after lesson. WTH can! so damn tired liao and practically no one was in the mood to study! anyway, valerie's birthday is tomorrow. i gave her the present and the contract! she signed it. haha

freakin tired these few days

and you know what!

i injured myself while playing bball and vball. xianzz....my hand ia bandaged for several days liao

lalala

and talked to twinnie and xinyu abt the eyes of someone. dian dao wo le. haha

you xiao lu luan zhuang de feel.

OMG!

2009-08-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

把那天那一段美好的回忆记在心中.

就算日后无法继续, 希望我们依然能够想起我们曾经经历的美好, 快乐的回忆

2009-08-05T04:55:00.000-07:00

SERIOUSLY NOT IN A GD MOOD.

keith get well soon

huicong too!

BN jiayous for test!

2009-08-01T19:16:00.000-07:00

Before attending annexe, just post lor...haha

yeah. so i seriuosly have to say i AM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD RECENTLY.

everything seems to be against me. which i dunno why. everything didn't turn out to be what i wanted it to be. WHY? i won't know either. school stuffs are just freakin me out. ppl kao bei me, den nt happy with me den dao-ed me and whatsoever, some even insults me. and i have actually experienced something bad tht i dun wish to comment. too upset over it

thanks to cheryl wifey, cherylmine darling, xinhui my boss, denise the swan, jeanette partner, twinnie my buddy and all those who actually consoled me and kept me company these few days. though it wasn't long and you guys didn't know what happened tht caused my mood to swing all the time these few days. thanks and i seriouslky love you guys. i won't know what to do and i might even attempt to do foolish stuffs. thanks for talking to me.

well, i am bucking up. i must jiayou to prove to ppl tht i can do it.

btw, i bought new shoes. haha.

going for annexe. till one. and i think sets are freakin me out

2009-07-31T03:57:00.000-07:00

heyhey. back to post again. well, yeah.

first talk abt vball inter class.

we won. players are: bh, ex, xh, keith, zhenyu, jingyu, cc

a few went to watch the match. to cheer them on. we lost first round, won second round. third round gt some controversey, bt we won in the end. cos opponent cheated. bt i'm nt going to say who. yeah, luckily they realised and told the referee. or we'll feel very sad. yeah. den next we are playing against JT. but heard tht they gt quarantined. but they are active today le. and you know what! my wifey became the chairman. WOW! haha. yeah...cool huhh?! but i think she's gonna have a freakin hard time cos she has huang yuling and her gang(who are mostly bitches) to handle.

huang yuling damn BITCH can. calls me bitch and slut. who she think she is la. i nt close to her yet she just call me tht. she more bitchy and slut can. i also nvr do anything to offend her, WTH la. i think her brains gt prob can! suffering from the geng nian qi(meant for old ppl). i'll send her to IMH next time if she calls me tht. or maybe scream back bitch and slut to her. or maybe i am in bad mood tht day, i'll just slap her on the face or give her green form. (for her ****ing grooming den her attitude towards me.

second is the napfa test.

well, i shld just say tht its...tiring. i can't comment on anything. yeah. during the 2.4km run day. i became the nicest person can. i went to every sec 2 class in new block saying the exact same thing:"chariman and vice chairman, pls go down to the concourse to get number tags for your class. thank you." den we ran the 2.4km run. i starting gt ear piece with me cos i was listening to music, but i decided to remove it and ask zhiyang to help me put back. yeah...he didn't run. he just recovered on that day(came back to school). he was sick. haha. den after that i was walking to bus stop with seekim and tht time 2RP was starting to run. so i told seekim whether will we see RP ppl. amazingly, MJ runs fast. i just walk a few steps out of the back gate and he was there liao...bballers actually quite fast(i should say cos nic yuanan benny rena they all quite fast) during the 2.4km run.

den also i wan to talk abt a game 终极密码. the guys in our class quite unlucky. they were like the ppl affetced cos when we forfeit, it'll involve them. but mine worst can i went 2EP to say hi to mrs ho. den so paiseh. got my ex( the start of the yr tht one wk stead there mah.

he dao-ed me recently. so i just wanna say something to him here.

yeah, cannot be friends meh? you shld have seen my note last time. and i mean what i say. but did you fulfill what you did? not to let ppl see...but you did. i didn't mind tht. but at least you shld react right? why dao?

i dunno is intentional or purposely la. but den i am seriously quite upset abt it. cos i dun like ppl dao me de mah...den you dagoogogoogo, so bad. LOL. but i wun hold it against you. you go zui your xinying ba...

den yeah...

something like this and yeah...i am telling bn ppl abt the next 2 week stuffs and chalet.

BN, i mei bao nagging again.

next week: history test(CHAPTER 7--abt maria hertogh and anti national service)
chinese test(21, 23,29)
Marina barrage fieldtrip
CCA photoshoot
NSW maths
volleyball inter class
national day celebration

den the chalet thing is that BN supposed to have chalet de okayy...cos next yr ppl go IP den diff class den we go separate ways.

so it shld be after streaming and before the results are out. decide on 3D2N or 2D1N. cos must book early or no nice places. den yeah. will invite ms liu mrs ho and mdm wu.

2009-07-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

MY BUDDY LEFT :(

i cried.

very sad

miss her

i'll fly to chongqing and meet her this yr.

hope she won't forget me

i won't forget her

i had nice time with her

and the others

虽然我们分隔两地, 但我们不会忘记对方. 十一月, 我来了

2009-07-23T05:33:00.000-07:00

CHANGED skin but i serious think there's something wrong with it. why is it to the right? can someone just tell me?

2009-07-20T23:11:00.000-07:00

i am freakin tired today. still got co. summore ppl kao bei me today. which is such an rritating thing. ask me stop complaining she also do tht. i nicely tell them go com lab 2 den she just said that i say things say halfway. wtf can. you say that to tchr la. not my fault totally. scold me for what! whatever. dun care le. she pissed i also pissed. spend twenty plus dollars on recess of buddies today. broke le. sigh. and haha. someone says that simyuanan is african cos his complexion very dark. haha. yeah. simyuanan, lucky i nt like you. but you are really very "nice". LOL

posting in school. i very scared. shld i skip cca? i really very tired. den i wanted to go home sleep. yeah. so just let me be. i wan sleep. sleeping rocks. cos i dunno why. cos i always dream of nice stuffs that make me love sleeping so much.

well i am actually crapping. so dun care this post. becos its out of fatigue den i post de. not in good mindset.

and i wanna say something. that guy dun like xinying. new block guy versus old block junior.

2009-07-17T02:41:00.001-07:00

有的时候，自己哭了，但莫名的泪水为谁而流？现实？自己？还是那空虚的心？我不是忙了半天，却不知道自己想要什么的人。

那年，我不知不觉地，喜欢上了你。那年，你不知不觉喜欢上了她。

多次，你问我该如何是好。我回答，顺其自然。你发火了。还说出了，那段伤人的话。

你狠狠地说出了一大段话。没想到，爱哭的我，当时一滴泪都没有流。因为，你的坏脾气，没人比我更受得了。

那个秘密还是深深地在我心里的一个角落。尽量不去揭开它，只希望时间能将它带走。

你我各自都有过不同的伴侣。我们一起去游玩。可是，到了最后，我们各自的伴侣居然都走在一块儿了。

你是否知道，心里看着你伤心难过的时候，居然还也会有那种感觉.

快要窒息了，撕心裂肺的，心痛。原来，我其实还忘不了，也放不下.

2009-07-15T18:38:00.000-07:00

well, i dun think you guys see me in school today. I AM ILL. down with fever and those stuffs. kinda sad :( hope i recover soon.

dun miss me.

2009-07-11T00:19:00.000-07:00

请你听听这是我想念的声音
如果你还记得那年的冬季
那件大衣口袋的温暖甜蜜
有我们握爱的手心

计算不出曾经拥抱你的距离
也许我把自己想的太聪明
原来爱情需要一点点的空气
天下着雨有人还等着天放晴

You Make Me A Fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽固
那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦

计算不出曾经拥抱你的距离
也许我把自己想的太聪明
原来爱情需要一点点的空气
天下着雨有人还等着天放晴

You Make Me A Fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽固
那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦

你可说我傻的可以
你可说我还没放弃
想念会让人期待着奇蹟

You Make Me A Fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽固
那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦>

2009-07-10T02:13:00.001-07:00

this time round it's really different.

tears rolling down endlessly.
and i cant stop it, even i told myself to stop.
it just roll down. i really hurts me
really hurts me.
maybe i'm really selfish, not thinking abt how other people feel.

it's so difficult to get me to bed as tears just fall, as i'm typing this.
i'm tired, but i just cant get into bed.
maybe once again, different drugs could aids me.
and bring me some rest without thinking and perhaps it might stop my tears from falling again and again.

2009-07-10T02:12:00.002-07:00

sigh, sometimes i just think where do i really stand?
seems that i'm just a hassel to your life. other thing might just seems to be important rather than me. I intentionally took off to accompany you. But in the end, what i get from you? Maybe i'm being too selfish?! saying one thing and doing another? i also dont know. too emotional though. But i just find myself out of your life already, as i feel i'm not important anymore. Not a single trace though. Have i changed? changed to a ridiculous girl out in this whole, who demand alot from you? nevermind, i'm utterly speechless, and upset too. It's so so so vague! really vague. can i go back to the reality? sigh.
no more tears this time, please!

2009-07-10T02:12:00.001-07:00

sigh, everything i do just seems wrong.

every single thing to you is i'm wrong.

i dont know. just afraid it might just end this way.

is it me? the one who always caused all this. and eventually lead to this type of feeling-ending soon.

perhaps i should start to get use of this alrdy.

the sun light today is strong. However, i dont feel the same way.
Just that the sun light pierce through my mind and heart.
making me feel so uncomfortable, and i feeling of i can just die now.

p.s. can i really gulp myself with 2 bottles of sleeping pills and die on the bed now?

I should wake up now, should!
i should walk through this part of life.
i dont seems to be running in this love marathon anymore, as i find faults in myself.
ALL MY FAULTS THIS TIME ROUND.
ALL THOSE FCUKING THINGS I DID AND SAID!
can i do anything else to stop all this? may i? can i? shall i?
promise no more tears.
but how can i stop it from running down the corner of my eyes.
I tried to say i can. nevertheless, it just can't.
Perhaps this time round, it hurts both of us.
it is just an accident and we have woke up from the coma stage?
can i say that? can we continue after the coma stage? into the stage where both of us are fully awake? i dont want dreams, i dont want vague descriptions.
i just want reality!!

p.s. maybe i can only say rest well, and get well soon, take care of yourself. i'm not around by your side this time round.

hide in the corner of my room, trying to do something meaningful to me, but not to others.

2009-07-10T02:01:00.000-07:00

end of the week liao. so i'm offically posting. some stuffs. -.- saw some inspriational stuffs that i saw from xinyu's blog.

许多的事情，总是在经历过后才懂得。一如感情，痛过了，才懂得如何保护自己；傻过了，才懂得如何适时的坚持与放弃，在得到与失去中我们慢慢的认识自己。其实，生活并不需要这么些无谓的执着，们有什么就真的不能割舍。学会放弃，生活就真的容易。学会放弃，在落泪之前转身离去，留下简单的身影；学会放弃，将昨天埋在心底，留下最美好的回忆；学会放弃，让彼此都能有一个更轻松的开始，遍体鳞伤得的爱并不一定刻骨铭心。这一程情深缘浅，走到今天已是不易，轻轻的抽出手，说声再见，真的很感谢这一路有你。曾说过爱你的，今天，仍是爱你。只是，爱你，却不能和你在一起，一如爱那原野，爱它，却不能携它归去。每一份感情都很美，每一程相伴都令人迷醉。是不能拥有的遗憾让我们更感眷恋。感情是一份没有答案的问卷，苦苦的最寻并不能让生活更圆满，也许一点遗憾，一丝伤感，会让这份问卷更隽永，也更久远。

收拾起心情，继续走吧！错过花，你将收获雨；错过他，我才遇到了你。继续走吧，你终将收获自己的美丽。
一个永远不想失去你的人，未必是爱你的人，未必对你忠心耿耿。有时只是这种脑袋不清的强烈的占有欲者，他们才会做出各种“损人不利己”的事情，还如此理所当然。

在心中如果有"曾经拥有就永远不要失去”的偏执狂与占有欲，越想获得爱的永久保证书，只会越走越偏离。

谁说喜欢一样东西就一定要得到它。有时候，有些人，为了得到他喜欢的东西，殚精竭虑，费尽心机，更甚者会不择手段，以致走向极端，也许他得到了喜欢的东西，但是在追逐的过程中，失去的东西也无法计算，付出的代价是其得到的东西所无法弥补的，也许那代价是沉重的，直到最后才会被发现罢了，其实喜欢一样东西，并不一定要得到它，有时候为了强求一样东西而令自己身心疲惫，是很不划算的，再者，有些东西是“只可远观不可近焉”，一旦你得到了它，日子久了你可能会发现它并不如想象中那般美好，如果你在发现你失去的和放弃的东西更珍贵的时候，我想你一定会懊悔不已，所以也常有这样一句话“得不到的永远是最好的”，所以当你喜欢一样东西时，得到它并不是你最明智的选择。

谁说喜欢一个人就要和他（她）在一起，有时候，有些人，为了能和自己喜欢的人在一起，他们不惜使用“一哭二闹三上吊”这种最原始的方法，想以此来挽留爱人的人，但是这并不能挽留住他的心，更有甚者，为了这而赔上自己那年轻而又灿烂的生命，可能会唤起爱人的回应吧，但是这给他（她）带来了更多的自责与内疚，还有不安，从此快乐就会和他（她）挥手告别。其实喜欢一个人，并不一定要和他（她）在一起的，虽然有人说：不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有，但是并不是所有的人都会快乐，喜欢一个人，最重要的是让他幸福快乐，因为他的喜怒哀乐都会带来你的情绪的波动，所以也常有这样一句话：你快乐，所以我快乐。

喜欢一样东西，就要学会欣赏它，珍惜它，使它更弥足珍贵。

喜欢一个人，就要让他（她）幸福，使那份感情更诚挚，如果你做不到，那你还是放手吧！所以有时候，有些人，有时候，也要学会放弃，因为放弃也是一种美丽！

2009-07-05T23:22:00.000-07:00

HEY! back to blog again. haha.

had a fun time at tampines mall again! bought quite alot of things. and i learnt how to dance several songs today. and i realised that breakin is the easiest. i had a damn nice time making use of lockin poppin and breakin to dance. hehe. so cool.

den met CT and WW. but they didn't see me. so i dun care. haha. i think i'm growing fat! i ate swensens today! damn nice can. and its quite cheap. den i tell you a freak thing.

WHEN I WAS TAKING PHOTO( ZILIAN) DEN WHEN I TOOK THE PHOTO LIAO, THE HANDPHONE HANG! WTH can. den i have to walk around TM with my phone with my picture on top. WALAO. pissed. but after a while the phone went off den it restarted.

I was totally angry can! i think phone playing tricks on me.

and i met a new friend today! its has the same name as the MJ in cchms. you shld know who. but he from dunman high school. i didn't know tht dunman high got shuai ge but i actually found one. haha. he also from basketball. den i was saying:" nxt time got chnace come cchms den i intro CCHMS MJ with DHS MJ. den 2 MJ-s will communicate with each other. a good scene. but the sad thing is the dhs MJ is sec four de. haha. i also dun like him. he just my NEW friend. hehe.

maybe got chance see him again =)

well, overall, i had quite a fulfilling day today.

tmr going back sch liao. maybe mostly slack periods. and got charisma lessons which is on sexual temptations. haha. i get excited last week. maybe even worse this time round. haha. i mean i keep laughing during tht lesson due to some weird answers by classmates and my own grp which i can' believe tht i actually wrote or presented tht.

2009-07-05T00:09:00.000-07:00

I promised to blog till the hundredth post so i just have to post 50 more. went for tution today. haha. saw yenling they all. HUICONG! I nt in jiang le okayy. i just went to visit my classmates. damn cool can. but sometimes kinda weird. miss the si bian tai, dunno why. maybe no one to bicker ba. haha. we squabble all the time so when we didn for very long, kinda miss it. haha. hope he gets into VJC and hope he remembers me. haha. my very strong competitor. you better jiayou or next time i go VJC you die. =) .

den went for maths. saw zhiyang. den we went back to class. and we chatted abt the canteen table thingi. kinda sick but funny. den we had competition today. got semi finals too! me hwee boon fight for the finals and the two valerie-s fought for the next final position. den two chungcheng ppl got into finals den we tied. so we got chicken soup next week.

haha. den went to have lunch. the heaviest noodle in the world. waited for so long can. but kinda worthed. den saw my aunt at home, my mum teaching my aunt how to tie a weird hairstyle. haha. using facebook now.

damn bored. and i have 预感 tht either CT or WW blogged abt me again. but i lazy go see. i just want to say tht i wan put everything behind me and continue with life.

writing a new song, out of randomness. called 无法释怀. got 曲 somemore. haha. just got a guitar. so happy! :D

2009-07-03T01:54:00.001-07:00

桌上那本反光日记
是曾经的回忆
第一页写满幸福约定
属於被此的甜蜜

交换心情
我们的故事无人能敌
为何到精彩剧情却没有下季待续

你写的一字一句
我全都紧记在心
不要说走就走
没留下讯息

没有你的世界
我不懂快乐有多容易
在这少了你的交换日记
只剩我孤单在结局

日记里的字字句句
依旧被此贪心
仿佛笑关心所有记忆
还原当时的场景

我的心里不懂你离开我的原因
思念停留在脑里眼泪来不及算计

你写的一字一句
我全都紧记在心
不要说走就走
没留下讯息

没有你的世界
我不懂快乐有多容易
在这少了你的交换日记
只剩我孤单在结局

为何我们之间有阻碍
幸福结局不够圆满

放手是你给我的答案
我会习惯你不在

你写的一字一句
我全都紧记在心
不要说走就走
没留下讯息

没有你的世界
我不懂快乐有多容易
在这少了你的交换日记
只剩我孤单在结局

2009-07-03T01:33:00.000-07:00

WANG WINNIE'S VERSION

WTH. -.- Got damn pissed today. Super pissed.
You know, we (Celine and me) faced a TOTALLY absurd situation today. Yeap, many of you heard it since we were practically shouting. Stop asking what happened, I'm explaining now-.- Yeah. I am not going to hide anything I'm pissed with in my heart. I will just be very straight. Yes, Mabel, I think you're weird. We were outside the music room. Celine and I were thinking about lyrics, doing our OWN stuff when all of a sudden M appeared and started asking where's my name tag. Lol, how would you like it if I came up to you all of a sudden, while you're doing something that needs total concentration, and start yammering a question. Stupid right? Won't you be pissed too? okay, then I ignored her on purpose, bet she could tell too. Then, she should understand and walk away. But, she didn't and asked again. -.- I know, you have the right to ask but in the first place, today's Thursday FYI... I didn't bring my name tag since Monday if you HAVEN'T notice.-.- Simply cause I have a reason, right?-.- Then you chose that time to ask THAT question.-.- Okay, so next I was pissed and replied, "Your business, ar?" Then M said, "I can book you for not bringing your name tag." Okay, maybe somewhere like that. Then Celine was standing next to me and decided to help me, "You think you councillor you big ar?" Haha. Then M got pissed. Lols, we should be the ones getting pissed lor. Okay, then she immediately went to Twinnie. Lols, obviously, we could tell what you were thinking and what crap you were telling her. Then Miss Ang opened the music room. Some people went in then you stopped at the door and shouted, "Some people think they vice chairperson then they big." Lols. I got pissed also lar. Then my turn to help Celine, and shouted something back at her which I forgot. Then she shouted something back and went into the music room and cried. LOLS. I was like close to the other music room lor. Then Celine and I were thinking the same thing ba, right Celine? 'Mabel is nutz' Okay, we went in and saw a group of you all crowding around her. Great. Then she's making me the devil. So, I went in and sat where I usually sit lor. Lols, then she cried for a very very long time, emo a lot then went missing for the rest of the end part of the lesson. The end.

1) The fact that Mabel came disturbing us has been stated above.

2) The fact that Mabel cried-,- and dramatically.
lols, obviously, that gets attention. Then everybody who doesn't know the situation will comfort her. Afterthat, she'll start telling them distorted story of what happened. I will be seen as the evil person. Lols, getting confront isn't very fun, you know-.- Lols. As claimed, she mentioned about already having a bad day and having the premonition of getting pissed that day. Wow, I also had a bad day lehs, I also had premonition that I was going to get pissed nia, what a coincidence.-.- Stupid. Since you know you were going to get pissed, you should NEVER pick up a fight in the first darn place. Wth lar.

3) Next, abuse of authority.
Councillor very big ar? Can anyhow book people ar? Lols. Just because you became a councillor(Wow?! you expect me to say this???) then you can abuse the trust all the teachers had in you and anyhow book people for lame and unreasonable reasons? To tell the truth, many people were wondering how'd you get that position in the first place. LOLS.

4) Tolerance.
You know I don't like you. This is not the first time I treated you like this. Lol. You understand.
You know, I have been tolerating everything for a long time. Just because Celine seem to be TRYING to accept you. I have tolerated. can't you see, whenever you stick around, I didn't chase you away, I didn't avoid you like you had a disease. Lols. But, as they always say, tolerance has a limit.

yes, I have many things to say but I think this is enough for today. I know nobody's perfect and I'm not too, but you seem to be the most pissing case of all I have ever seen! This is like the second time I had an actual fight with you. But you always act like nothing happen afterthat. I don't understand you! Why do you revert back to your old ways after your ahem. -.-

Aiya, all I wanna say is, I very pissed and very fan now. LOLS, pissed that my maths couldn't solve that one darn it question.

Sigh~ that's why I always don't really like to comfort anyone... Actual truth, I don't know how to lar...

CELINE'S CASE
Heyhey.
Today is supposed to be a comfy, nice, dumb day for me.
And it didn't proved a few hours ago.
And it contrasted a few minutes ago.

Hahaa, for the second matter, think wangwinnie going to blog later on.
If you think you pro, then pro lorh.
Anyways, you don't crap to other ppl that wangwinnie is @ fault.
You so zhuai in the corridor, then continue to do so.
Backbone is needed in every quarrel.
Im darn happy im not becoming a vicechairman. :D
Dun wan let ppl think i dua pai or anything. HOHO.
I like the fact that me and wangwinnie are sticking for each other.
True friends hah.
And copying other ppl doesn't do you any good.
Have something original please.
Thankyouverymuch. D:
So go yeah?

For the last one is that two of my best friends are sort of patching up.
YAY. My greatest wishings to both of you. :D
Dun care about stupid people like BY.
Im goddamn happy for them.
Love y'all.

Maths is totally a brain killer.
Or thriller.
Whatever. D:
But it's kind of nice but not the stress of mock tests all over. D: !

Music was cute with music videos!(:
(I was more famaliar with them than Indian music.) ==
CMP was hard, and i was spacing out as usual.
Who doesn't?
Me and Xiaowen only ba.
;D I find Xiaowen a very nice seating partner really. :D
Physics seem to be a little draggy, but im quite comfy with the cold jokes. :D
Minesweeper and some bomb thing seems cute.
Well, geography is nice because of it was going to rain kind of a thing.
And... the bus is full. D:

Ate late lunch with Crystal and wangwinnie, talked like mad ppl.
Crysal and I playing hide-and-seek. teehee.
Blur wangwinnie seemed to be lost in the FOOD SECTION. :'p
She was too tired for the day. :O

They were bladder-full.
And i finally knew the pleasure of friendship.
And i think i finally know who is pathetic ppl

MY CASE

you all wonder how i got in?! i got in because of i have ability. you dun like me in the first place, den why make use of me? treating me like those kinda dog being held by you. celine accepting me? i dun even feel that way. you guys de attitude practically proves to me that you all never even realised my existence in the first plase. yes, i have depression, split personality as what the doctor had said. and if you guys dun crap, i wun. thats called an eye for an eye can! you all dunno my situation you all still say i am crazy or what yes i am, so WHAT CAN YOU DO? i can go bonkers anytime when i want to. yes, i am bitch i am lunatic. i dun have friend's care and concern. i just want to cherish everything i have now. but since you guys dun even like me in the first place, den dun. treat me as though i have disease can le. you happy? you happy? satisfied with what i say now?! CELINE TAN, yes i am pathetic. and SUCH A LUNATIC LIKE ME DUN NEED YOUR CONCERN AND YOUR 假好心. wang winnie says you are trying to accepting me, but dun force yourself. i am crazy, i can do the exact same thing and history repeats. i dun need you to be my friend or anytrhing like that. i think this is the best thing. and to WANG WINNIE, i dun really care, so you just let me be what i am now. and if you dun like me, dun make use of me. 我不是任你操控的傀儡.

2009-06-30T02:38:00.000-07:00

想哭，却欲哭无泪...
发生了什么事？

我好乱，好彷徨，好孤独。
怎么办？
我这一颗心，麻木丑陋的心该怎么办？
怎么办？

谁来救我？
谁来帮我？

想逃，真的累垮了。
想找自己喜欢做的事，却发现一件也没有。
每一天就这么过着...
到现在，我还是不明白为什么。得到那么多，又是为了什么？
最近都在反复思索着同样的问题，
心都烦了，累了...

付出么多，到底为了什么？

2009-06-30T02:17:00.001-07:00

school reopen liao. must mug. haha

but i still must post. i changed HCL teacher. Its called Miss Liu. i miss Mdm Wu. this teacher is very weird can. so young den teach BN den summore first day jiu give homework. write compo. the next day must hand up. WTH la. Mdm Wu will let us till end of the week cos she knows we are tired. but now we can't.

den today the class got scolded cos we wasted 5 mins. its her la. she came in at ten thirty when class supposed to start at ten twenty five. summore she say we nt punctual.

never mind...

weekend den post liao. cos i came on com cos of some geog project de. haha. bye

♥Mabel

2009-06-27T19:29:00.000-07:00

我深深地记得这则故事...

有一天,

柏拉图问苏格拉底老师是什么是爱情.

苏格拉底叫他到麦田走一次，要不回头地走，在途中要摘一株最大最好最漂亮的麦穗，但只可以摘一次。

柏拉图觉得很容易，充满信心地出去，谁知过了半天他仍然没有回去。

最后，他垂头丧气地出现在老师跟前诉说空手而回的原因：“我试着找到一片很大很漂亮的麦穗,不过很难得看见一株不错的，却不知道那是不是最好的，因为只可以摘一株，只好放弃，再往前走看看有没有更好的。到发现已经走到尽头时，才发觉手上一株麦穗也没有---”

这故事告诉我们: 我们必须珍惜每一个曾经. 因为我们不知道以后到底会发生什么事情.

2009-06-14T22:09:00.000-07:00

Went on an extremely fun overseas trip with valerie. haha. i didn't share a bed with her but we shared a home! damn fun!!! and a kid is practically glued to me tht 2 days one nights.

olivia@ MACDONALDS! HE'S SICK. you guys know what, he actually boxed macdonalds 胯下! tht picture is too unglam to be seen. OMG. so young so sick liao. and you know what, he's 5 yrs old and he siad:" what the f u c k you doing?! " and i was like damn shocked and he said it was my cousin that taught how to say de, and he pointed his middle finger!!!!

still him! haha

at the house. in one of the rooms

recognise this chio bu not?! its valerie playing psp. she knows i taking picture of her?!

my photo with olivia! haha. damn tired so damn unglam. sorry ar?!

2009-06-10T23:25:00.000-07:00

talking abt yesterday. mum and dad went hospital to visit someone. so my sis and i were alone at home. she practised her violin(if 5 mins is called practice) and i watched random stuffs. haha.

TODAY!

first lesson of EL tution. haha.only for a month so i am alright with it. looking forward to it tonight. :) well, went shopping with mum and sis today! bought quite alot. and i bought woonie's birthday present. hope she will like it when she receives it. :)

dunno what to post liao.

goodbye.

2009-06-10T04:12:00.000-07:00

third post today.

and you know what! this blog has the most posts!!! which means that the other blogs have lesser posts than this. OMG! I broke record!

yeah. dedicating a song to a very special person.

我太笨不懂爱情的分寸

想念着两个人的快乐依赖着你给的体温

我太笨看著你渐渐变冷

只能默默的给你信任传达我包容的眼神

付出这么多换来些什么我不愿过问

只愿相信你傻笑的很天真

在爱情里太笨是不是我天真

爱情的那些课程

我还没修完学分

在爱情里太笨

是不是我太天真

爱情的那些课程

Hoo Baby

爱情的那些学分

都没能满分

我太笨看着你渐渐变冷

只能默默的给你信任

传达我包容的眼神

付出这么多换来些什么我不愿过问

只愿相信你傻笑的很天真

傻得很天真

在爱情里太笨

是不是我天真

爱情的那些课程

我还没修完学分

在爱情里太笨是不是我太天真

爱情的那些课程

Hoo~

爱情的那些学分都没能满分

在爱情里太笨

是不是我天真

爱情的那些课程

我还没修完学分

在爱情里太笨

是不是我太天真

爱情的那些课程

Hoo Baby

爱情的那些学分都没能满分

2009-06-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

do i really exist in your world?
it really seems so vague.
the things you told me, and the action you did.
is totally different.it simply show that you dont bother about me again.

hello, i was, alright, i am still sick okay.& you can enjoy your fcuking time with your friends, and claim that you cant reject them. what the hell is this, really what's that. alright, in the first place i shouldn't had believe what you told me.& i actually requested you to be by my side, eventually what you did? DONT BOTHER ABOUT ME AGAIN!

what the hell is that. really can you tell me why i need to bear all these? when i say" then you enjoy with your friends". you dont even think that there's something wrong with me. & you dont reply me. wth!! until you are finish/done with your friends, you then remember i exist. exist in this world, or else you just ignored my msg and call. who am i to you? really, who am i to you? i just dont feel your concern and everything that you said. is so different.in fact, maybe i dont trust you. or you dont trust me.and here comes the "i dont trust you, you dont trust me".i hate that. initially, we agreed with all the trust, but you ruin all that. by all the "good deeds" you did previously. and you assume that i wont come to know about it. unfortunately, i knew it.

and yes, i'm digging all the old history that i dont like about you. i know you dont like that. but i also dont like how you treat me, as if i'm a trash. when you need me, i need to be there. when you dont need, i seems to be a hassle. and what you said was like so fcuking ridiculous: "are you going to quarrel with me again?"WHAT THE HELL IS THAT??? you are a psychic?as if i like to quarrel with you, no. the answer is no. who loves to quarrel. it really spoil my mood. i dont like how you treat me, really i dont like.you dont get what i mean and i dont get what you trying to convey.

it's still a huge question mark. i need a right answer.

2009-06-09T22:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes, i just dont know what i'm thinking. Just feel so down suddenly.

Perhaps, it's mood swing again. I just simply dont like it. I just feel that i'm like a puppet being played around by people. and when i need someone to be there for me, there's none of them there. I just kept everything to myself. even though i got good friends around me, i dont want to bother them with my problems and troubles. It's just like adding burden to them, and i dont want to owe them any favours in the future.

I hate it when i cant do anything to myself. I really hate myself, for being such a fcuked up person. Hate myself so much. I just dont deserve anything from now on. I felt sick and tired of all these. What's really wrong with me. And i always cant decide what i really want. When i decide on something, i tend to think and ponder quite alot after that. That is really vexing. And i was being so so unlucky during my weekends. Unhappy things just like to turn to me. And who can i say all the things to..?? I'm just so so disappoited in myself. Dont really know what to do :( sigh. Sometimes, i just hate people blaming me, and seriously i dont like. This is ME, if you dont like then forget it. I dont give a damn. This is ME, the things i want, the way i think, the way i speak and portray myself. I dont like being blamed for anything. and seriously, i'm not wrong in the first place. Really! I dont like to feel gulity and bad after being blame. I hate those after effect. sigh :(things just dont seems to go well in my life again. Ups and Downs. :(

2009-06-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!!!!!! I talked to another MABEL today! at the kfc that i am very afraid to go. got bad memory. den i ordered food from her! den its sounds as though i am talking to myself. MABEL TALKING TO MABEL! OMG. den saw yuanan on my way home near tampines mrt. though he didn see( i think he's blind or something). i so small sized meh?! until he cant see me. somemore he engrossed in his bball practice, or maybe engrossed in ming siew ba. dunno la. hehe... KFC is quite nice.

well, guess what i am doing now?! WATCHING PORN?!

NO LA...just kidding, i am BLOGGING and editing my facebook profiles and stuffs. let me tell you.........

MATHS tution was damn fun yesterday! i mean, funny. valerie and i went there like abt an hour earlier. den we exercised. den i keep telling valerie :" what will happen if i suddenly spot zhiyang and celine walking together, there slow walk? den what if i see them hold hand? should we walk over to say hi? should we take photo and post on BN blog?"i think i am crazy lor, they not even around or anything but i can actually think of that! somemore i say what two of them doing at zhiyang hse?! haha. damn funny. den i think i keep seeing zhiyang's shadow! i think i am hallucinating. haha.

yeah den tution started. we used the other rm. becos alvin was using that rm! HEY! ITS our rm okayy! HOW DARE YOU STEAL! den leonard started talking abt the tapec annexe food thingi. saying that there's an food outing today. at lavender.

i think i am not really in good state of mind lor. i dun mean today, i mean yesterday. money is considered part of maths and i told the tcher that its not! WTH! had a test yesterday. supposed to end at 7 in the end it ended at 8. xianz...den slacked at home....

and, i finally allowed the second batch of ppl into my blog. waiting to add the third batch inside....

=)

TAG REPLIES

2009-06-08T01:40:00.000-07:00

Cherylmine: THANKS a lot darling! =) and i've linked you. you my darling must be in my favourites right? or else who can fit that category huh?!

SEEKIM: haha. cheering up. will be cheerful like you de! :D

2009-06-08T01:15:00.000-07:00

一起游玩的路上你沉默默不说话

我努力讲冷的笑话

我想我明白了吧你的冷漠会解答

我们之间都在逞强

别说我还会遇到更好的男孩

别说还是朋友太老派

该分开就分开

谁说我没长大

谁说我不够坚强

就算受了伤也不会害怕

有一天幸福再造访

谁说我放不下

谁说不能去原谅

虽然有时候还是会想他

对的人却在另个方向

跟你的路上你沉默默不说话

我努力讲冷的笑话

我想我明白了吧你的冷漠会解答

我们之间都在逞强

别说我还会遇到更好的男孩

别说还是朋友太老派

该分开就分开

谁说我没长大

谁说我不够坚强

就算受了伤也不会害怕

有一天幸福再造访

谁说我放不下

谁说不能去原谅

虽然有时候还是会想他

对的人却在另个方向

谁说我没长大

谁说我不够坚强

就算受了伤也不会害怕

一个人有好多梦想

谁说我放不下

谁说不能去原谅

虽然有时候还是会想他

离开了才能各自飞翔

2009-06-07T22:48:00.000-07:00

Probably it was just my naive, wild imagination,
probably it was true that i ain't that important to you anymore.
Maybe i wasn't important to you in the first place
The things you say, your actions and your attitude towards me, explains everything. I dont know, but i foresee.

Times we have walked through, short but happy.
Did you realise that i was looking at you all the time?
Finding chances just to talk to you. Everything wasn't on my way.

Dont wish to fool myself either,so what's more?
You're keeping everything to yourself, i dont like to see you like that,
yeah, im worried, puzzled, and even more curious to know what's on your mind.
The way you react, makes me afraid of you. I dont know what our relationship is becoming, but im even more afraid to lose you.

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing

What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile
when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still HarderGetting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

If anyone asks,I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,I'll swallow my prideand bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
CryIf anyone asks,I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
CryI'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
CryCry

2009-06-07T01:38:00.000-07:00

i'm avoiding that to come into my reality.
perhaps when that day really comes, i dont even know what to do.
i could say i'll get over it, without being sad.
but who knows, I'm just a walking contradiction.

things dont seems the same,people always say human change everyday.
but must it be such a massive change? the world seems to be so unfair to me, no one could hear what i want to say.
The small little memory pieces are still hanging around me, everywhere.

Is there someone for me, seriously?
Is there someone to reach out?
Is there someone to listen to me?
Is there someone to hold me?

Maybe the only way is to go back in order to move forward.

No one could hear me even though i shouted out loud.

i dont want to be alone.
nevertheless, i feel that i'm alone.
perhaps this is the retribution i get, after all these years.

I understood wanting to forget. Things that made me remember cut like pieces of glass.
A song, a memory, a dream, all of it as painful as the deepest wound.

You know how sometimes you have a moment in life that is something you thought only happened in movies? and you dont wish to happen in your life.

Everything I say, I say to me first.
Everything I do, I do to me first.
So what? I lied. I lie to me too.

Just remember, the sweet is never as sweet without the sour.

well, perhaps i just cant get the things i want in life.

Leaving this world might be so so helpful to myself.

i can never be who i want to be if i keep looking over my shoulder at the past.

today, i finally realise the change.
and i seriously dont want it.
can i have it back?

if i really want to be happy, maybe i should look beyond the imperfections.apparently, i cant be as cool as what i assume i could.

i build myself up, and now i'm tearing myself down, in just a short period of time.

The people you love the most will always be the ones who hurt you the deepest.

It works the other way around, too.yeah, i’m extremely fine.

i’m just having an allergic reaction to the universe.i should just quarantine myself in a room, without any sunlight, and voices.
maybe in this room, i could get some respond back.

only over dosage of drug makes my mind swirl off into a pool of non-existence.

2009-06-06T22:47:00.000-07:00

Well, just came back from tution. kinda busy though. haha.

i am going somewhere very luo hou in a few days time. but fun =)
going with valerie and guys. looking very forward to the trip!!!

played facebook and blogger. so shuang. den download my psp stuffs and hp stuffs. :D FYI, in case you guys dunno, i changed my handphone! to samsung pixon(M8800) after 4 yrs of sony ericsson, samsung is back to my side!

2009-06-06T00:10:00.000-07:00

posting in english again. CHINESE really very difficult to understand meh? i really dun get it?! its your language you know. haha.kidding la. i understand why. :D

Well, went to takashimaya to buy some books. and i practically love it sia. soo nice. romance book. well, its kinda continue from koizora, its called kimizora! WOW! Den went out with parents to give out presents, they went overseas. and i got alot of clothes. YAY!

these few days when my parents were overseas was kinda cool, i didn't really missed home cos i came home everyday. to bathe and wash clothes. den the last day went out with serene to shop. haha...den bought some stuffs. den we went on my facebook account and did some very weird and funny quizzes. den we can't stop laughing. den we went to see our friends picture and i cant stop laughing. den we saw our yearbook and serene selected the prettiest girl in the sec 1 level in 2008 which is our batch, and its ming siew. OMG. sec two is fang yu and den the rest we didn select. but she complained abt shenglong. our ex ex xzz. she said shenglong used her peak to scratch his back and the peak wasn't returned to her at the end of performance. haha. had quite a nice day anyway.

kinda ending here. becos i DUNNO what to post abt anymore. bye everyone. dun miss me

2009-06-04T02:38:00.000-07:00

脚受伤, 心灵受到很大的创伤. 最近我真的没什么睡觉, 睡不着, 老是想东想西的,确真搞不懂. 不过心里真的很累, 要睡觉睡不着. 想用功课让自己累一点, 比较能够入睡不过就是不行. 最近一直发简讯给很久没有聊天的朋友, 然后钩起了很多回忆. 曾说自己喜欢这男生, 喜欢那男生, 现在我只想说, 其实至始至终, 我一直喜欢着这一名男生. 可能我不太会表达, 他至今可能也不知道我在喜欢他, 我只知道我很在乎他的感受. 那次的事件, 使我真的无法在面对他, 虽然说我们不是很熟, 不过毕竟我们经历不少. 我想大家都在想, 那个人是谁...不是那些. 以前那一些, 应该算是欣赏, 可能年幼无知, 不过经历那件事情后, 我明白他在我心目中占有一个很重要的位置. 不是无人过问能取代, 不过对我来说, 他真的很重要很重要.

我心中的爱情没那么多的难题

我只知道爱上了那就是爱上了没有疑问

我是女生只要爱一个人用尽全力去争

不管爱情有多残忍不管你笑我笨

我是女生不管爱多残忍我比谁都认真

不管是女生或女人不管你笑我笨

我是女生

为你抄笔记替你拿外衣你没看在眼里

靠窗的位置桌子要分离我非常在意

之间的距离那么的遥远是我的顾虑

一直以为永恒的爱就是你

怎麼最近你对我很安静却对她细心

不再有简讯没出去散心冷漠得彻底

有人说长大爱就会变形只剩下回忆

直到那天看到你的眼睛才相信

原来你的心有空隙

她才能轻易地占据

我没本领我不争气假装不在意

原来我的心有空隙

还留著有你的记忆

眼泪是我爱情的纪念品

2009-06-01T01:19:00.000-07:00

我不能放其中一个照片在网络上, 所以只好放这一张. 因为那天的事情, 我已经有一个很不祥的预感我会失去很多朋友, 不过我现在即将将我的心声说出来. 那天也没什么好说的啦。就是在要回欣宇家的时候，接到了电话。什么惹到了什么人似的.我那么笨，笨的可以. 现在的心情很忐忑不安, 还有一点怕怕就对啦.那时我也很担心,担心同学扥安全.怎么说她也算是我们的校友还是什么的咧。就算他们走掉了，可是心里还是怕怕的。就超级为他们担心的,因为毕竟祸是我闯出来的, 但必须由其他人替我承担. 真的很对不起大家. 。他们终于回来的时候，还是很担心。每个人好像很轻松的，不过我还是觉得事情很恐怖似的。　

我现在要很诚恳地向大家抱歉, 因为害你们受惊了, 尤其是欣宇和振宇, 差一点就真的失去你们两个朋友. 还有, 我在事情发生后居然没有留下来. 那, 应该是我做最错的事. 我还要向大家说声对不起, 赶不及去救你们, 自己还先逃, 没有叫其他人一起离开. 真的很对不起, 没有义气. 我知道我现在说什么可能也于事无补,发生不过我真心的希望你们能够接受我的道歉.

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2009-05-28T03:46:00.000-07:00

又想用华文写网上日记.

刚才, 我妹的朋友来我家做专题作业. 似乎满好玩. 今天是我爸爸的生日. 班上的一些同学写了祝福语给我爸爸. 他好感动! 明天所有写的人好像会有礼物. 我不清楚, 不过我爸爸应该会买一些小礼物来感谢他们的祝福.

明天, 是家长老师的见面日. 身为学长的我有任务!　哈哈．　我其实不知道要做什么，　我甚至连自己的负责人是谁都不知道．　

介绍一首很好听的歌．　歌词是这样的：

为你抄笔记为你织围巾你夸我细心
靠窗的位置奶茶要少冰我帮你留意
专属的雨衣晚安的简讯是你的贴心
一直以为永恒的爱就是你

怎麼最近你对我很安静却对她细心
不再有卡片没离线讯息冷漠得彻底
有人说长大爱就会变形只剩下回忆
直到那天你的缺席才相信

原来你的心有空隙
她才能轻易地占据
我没本领我不争气假装不在意
原来我的心有空隙
还留著有你的记忆 Woo``
眼泪是我爱情的纪念品

2009-05-28T01:17:00.000-07:00

Back to post again. went for duty today, TENNIS gate! so freaked out. den went for full board! doing with kelly and rachel tmr...dun really konw who are they but i hope it will be fun! den went for inter class...kinda had dispute at the previous match and it affected BN's match. so sad, den went to do gd tcher's checklist. den went to help out with the thumb printing thing den went for movie in class. den went home with xinyu zhiyang huicong denise. took bus with them except for huicong. den we played prank on denise. haha. den took mrt to tampines. bought some cake for my daddy and present for my sis!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !!!

2009-05-27T00:27:00.000-07:00

Actually dunwan blog de, didn feel like going blogger today. but since i am here, just blog lor.

today got the bottle rocket thingi, freakin fun can! haha, my grp was the furthest in our div. pro right? yeah, KEITH OWE ME $5! CCHMS SC board funds...you nvr pay i ask li ling collect $20 from you. den the commission we split. haha. joking la, but you still have to pay hor...

not much stuffs happened...

xinyu bday coming , daddy and sis also. hmm...damn fun!

2009-05-22T03:24:00.000-07:00

今天所有的节目里面, 有喜当然也有忧.

喜
今天参加篮球比赛, 哈哈. 好高兴啊! 然后今天满早回家.

忧
今天我们班输了. 好伤心啊!
还有, 我今天惹志扬生气. 我真的不是故意的啦. 而且, 你要生气就生我的就好了嘛, 欣宇没有惹火你, 怪我就好了. 不要不理欣宇好吗? 她没有作错, 错在我. 对不起

其他的我真的没有心情说...

2009-05-22T01:54:00.000-07:00

志扬，哈哈。今天下午的事情你不要生气啦。我在这边跟你说声对不起啦。

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2009-05-21T01:36:00.000-07:00

在网上发现的趣事. 哈哈

2009-05-18T03:56:00.000-07:00

哈哈.我又回来了. 今天早上跟妈妈到 Tampines mall. 我们先去看手机然后去吃午餐然后我再去搭地铁.在逛街的时候看见同班同学. 哈哈. 然后今天下大雨.过天晴所以我跟晴晴和恩慈搭徳士. 然后我在下车前从车窗看到某人, 跟他的朋友. 那辆徳士的门不知道是不是跟我作对, 一直关上, 似乎不要让我下车似的.

今天上英文课, 然后上完课后就要写一篇英文作文. 哇, 我写完了! 好高兴啊我似乎每天都看到一位我很讨厌的人, 其实不是讨厌她, 应该说是对她没有任何感情吧, 没有朋友的感觉. 对我而言, 她只是一个熟悉的陌生人. 真搞不懂为什么对她有那么多的偏见, 因为种种原因我们渐渐疏远, 然后那时发生了那件事, 所以有很多误会吧. 嗨, 算了.

让我说一件事情...

下一个....

会告诉你:D

2009-05-17T01:32:00.000-07:00

让我来说说昨天在维初所发生的事情.

我看到一个跟我在同一个补习中心的一个同学, 我叫他但他却不理我.气死了! 昨天的开始还可以, 希望能百该校录取, 不过我想应该不可能, 因为他们从众多人(好像是一千两百多名学生)选出最好的一百位学生, 除非我真的那么聪明, 否则就是老师们的眼光有问题吧, 会让我进去. 哈哈. 别想了啦, 反正都过去了, 说再多也于事无补. 算了, 还是留在中正的好, 可以看到那么多帅哥美女.

今天是我上华文补习的最后一次, 不是从今以后没有上, 但在短期间内应该不会上. 好伤心啊, 要离开那边, 因为那边有很多我难忘的回忆, 所以刚才离开是我不忘回头看最后一眼. 再见了大家,不要想念我, 我会常去看你们的! 记得在那里要好好听课, 要按时交功课. 否则我一定会回来找你们算帐的!

哈哈. 然后到数学补习班. 上了一个非常搞笑的补习课. 哈哈. 看到一个杂志, 然后里边的内容好好笑. 让我来告诉你其中一个. 如果你身为一个辅导员,当一个女生同时被四位男生强奸时, 第一个反应就是叫她去报警不是吗? 这本杂志却问那名受害的女生那名男孩是否有用避孕套, 要不然女生可能会怀孕. 哈哈.

下课后到外面买东西, 吃午餐, 哈哈. 好开心啊. 不过, 我一会儿就回家来, 买好就走.

在家里完电脑...

再见了.

2009-05-15T18:08:00.001-07:00

昨天有班级的活动. 好高兴啊, 虽然没有说很多人去, 但我们依然玩得很愉快. 我来说说昨天去的十四个人吧. 首先, 是那五位早上就在怡丰城逛的五个人. 我, 馨怡, 荟妮, 欣宇和恩慈. 我们在那边吃早餐, 逛一下街, 然后就再乘搭地铁到政府大厦, 然后在慢慢走路去新加坡观景轮. 好远啊, 不过, 能跟大家一起搭乘观景轮真的很愉快, 很值得.

到那边,我才发现原来在学校集合的人根本还没到, 还在学校附近,不过他们说他们搭德士, 如果他们没有搭德士, 我应该会餐杀了他们, 因为走路必须走很久.哈哈

大家全到齐后, 我们到售票处买票去. 然后我们就上去了. 有人帮我们拍照哦, 一个团结照. 哈哈. 然后我们在等上观景轮是我问那边的人我们是否能"拥有",十四个人坐一个观景轮,又一个没有外人. 我本以为他们不会答应, 但他们答应了, 好高兴哦.

在观景轮上, 我们大家都忙着拍照留念. 我真的很高兴. 下观景轮后, 我们开始走到 suntec city.

过后的事情有不想说, 因为过后,我有一点不开心. 太多不愉快的事情发生了. 所以我才回早走.

希望我们回有下一次的游玩

2009-05-14T17:09:00.000-07:00

突然很想用华文写网上日记

年中考试终于结束了.

还记得一个月前的我, 还十分懒散, 慢慢开始筹备考试, 还跟妈妈说:"考试都还没有到, 没必要这么紧张. 不过, 时间越逼近时, 我感到十分紧张. 什么都没有准备好的我开始紧张害怕了. 我真的彻底领悟到提早准备的重要性. 这两个月来的确发生了很多事情, 有好有坏.

首先, 我进入了学生会. 面对着其他学生会会员对我的歧视, 我真的很累, 常听到他们说我的不是, 有的甚至怀疑我威吓能够进入学生会. 我真的不明白, 为什么你们要知道呢. 只要你们尽好做学生的本分, 好好读书, 就好了嘛. 算了. 我不详多说, 反正, 我说什么都没有用的.

其次. 我的生物考试取得了满优异的成绩,成绩去年我很少及格过, 这次的成绩真的令我感到惊讶. 不过, 为了今年的分流, 我一定要好好加油.

再来, 体通的就职典礼.认识了一些新朋友. 我还跟一些人说翔龙的前任组长很帅. 他长得超好看的,又十分有才华..哈哈.达跟兆龙组玩满多游戏, 很好玩. 新上任的组长是天宇和祖祥. 兆龙, 加油. 哈哈

说到体通, 当然要说到稿件. 我的稿件在五月十三日刊登了. 是个人物特写, 男丙篮球队队长. 哈哈.访问他很辛苦, 因为我跟他不熟, 很少讲话, 所以进行采访工作很困难, 要从自己手机简讯里找出他的资料. 花了很多时间. 不过, 一切的成果是值得的. 一声谢谢能让我心情快乐一整天.

回到考试, 我在五月十二日生病了. 校方把我赶回家休息. 谢谢同学们传简讯, 打电话来问候, 虽然我只离开学校一天, 但你们依然问候我. 我真的很开心. 在二仁班我真的很快乐.

听了一首歌, 很有感触. 回想起过去的事, 我真的觉得自己很笨, 很傻. 在小学只会在毕业是掉眼泪的我, 却在中学时, 时常掉泪, 为了一些小事掉眼泪真的很不值得. 我一定会变得更坚强. 一定.

生日快乐. 五月份宝宝真多. 诗琴, 珈欣, 佳爱, 欣宇, 博量, 明骏, 还有很多的五月份宝宝. 生日快乐. 希望你们能够很快乐地度过今年的生日. 礼物我应该都送了, 除了博量与欣宇的. 其他的希望你们会喜欢我送给你们的礼物. 尤其是某某, 你的礼物是世上独一无二的, 一定要喜欢喔.

好了, 大概就写到这里. 待会儿要跟班上的同学兼朋友出去. 好期待. 再见了.

2009-04-17T20:28:00.001-07:00

posting again....after biology test...

I ACTUALLY KNOW HOW TO DO?! haha...i think i will pass...maybe a B3 or B4? hehe...den went to find miss chan bt singyee valerie and me see 2JT ppl...those dance de...yeah den we dun really enjoyed the time with them...so we left....

den valerie dad fetched me lor...den saw bballers c boys coach talk to c girls outside den bballers kapoh...haha

i love myself....hehe

BN sweden competition jiayous....

2009-04-17T01:04:00.000-07:00

First time talking to liling...dun seem as scary as i thot...she seem nice bt i didnt really interacted with her today...went for duty with chongjin the section leader...he briefed me on the duties...and i did petrolling with twinnie today at old block level three...haha. so fun...

den there was full board...the meixuan they all wanted to intro me the the board. yeah den i was damn scared la...so i just said, i am mabel from two bee-ern...and just ended lor...hehe...changing duties next week le...so curious to find out what i doing...

lesson...went thru bio paper...i gt one mark less to full marks...

recess...booked john pang for defiance and grooming...i gave him 3 chances bt he nvr change...so dun blame me for anything hor...i gave chances....

den during d and t...i injured three fingers...two middle ones and my thumb....i am being sadist lor...feel so happy when i gt injured...

den went home.......study biology for tmr....MUG. must score well...

thanks edgar for jiayou-ing me....you jiayou oso....and i hope you jiayou for the other matter we mentioned...cheer for you :D

section 5

2009-04-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

well, supposed to meet meixuan outside new block toilet de bench...bt weijie told me she's gonna be late so he's briefing me...den halfway meixuan come le...den somehow i think i met ALL the top 6...i mean the entire CCHMSSC commitee...shuhadah, meixuan, weijie, jiaxin, sheryl, yuting...yup...they are really damn nice ppl....hope my section leaders are also as nice...hope they wun humiliate, discriminate, insult me like kaline anna bryan keith and anna and some other councillors la....bt i really damn scared sia...cos gt ppl say liling dun like me...summore i in liling's section sia...scared scared de...hope everything will be fine....

2009-04-13T23:18:00.000-07:00

haha...posting from cchms com lab...kinda scared tht tcher will just come over and shut the com...

went for councillor duty today...hehe. canteen. did it with jeanette from ep, tan winnie and yuki...kinda fun hehe...

alot of ppl keep saying i am in section 5...i nt very sure oso...haha. just take it into stride ba...

AND...i seriously cannot stand the ppl tht crapped abt me being a councillor....dun exceed the limit...i will burst and start to do things dranstic de. and MARK my words...summore dunno which bloody bitch say if i can be councillor, andrew can oso be one.....i just want to say tht tht particular person seriously dun even have the qualities to be councillor...insult other ppl and summore humiliate them....

2009-04-11T23:18:00.000-07:00

RULES:- Tell 100 Truths
- Tag 15 people after- They do the same back to you

1. Last beverage → honey green tea extra pearl
2. Last text message → "WHY?"
3. Last song you listened to → 我们之间
4. Last time you cried → hmm...weeks ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → no. and will never.
2. Been cheated on? → yeah
3. Cheated someone else? → no.
4. Lost someone special? → yeah.
5. Been depressed? → yeah.
6. Been drunk and threw up? → yeah.

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS: green :D orange :D black :D white:D

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends→ yeah
2. Fallen out of love → yeah.
3. Laughed until you cried → yeah.
4. Met someone who changed you → yeah.
5. Found out who your true friends were → yeah.
6. Found out someone was talking about you → yeah.
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list →hmm...no
8. How many people on your friend's list do you know in real life → most.
9. How many kids do you want to have → 5. -.- LOLo
10. Do you have any pets → no. i'm scared of them.
11. Do you want to change your name → no. my name soo nice...why change? :D
12. What did you do for your last birthday → study for literature paper
13. What time did you wake up today → 6
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → typing articles.
15. Name somethings you CANNOT wait for → no idea. no mood in everything.
16. Last time you saw your father → in the morning.
17. One thing you wish you could change about your life → to be a better person.
18. What are you listening to right now → music.
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → no
20. What's getting on your nerves right now? → tests...
21. Most visited webpage → blogger

1. What's your name → MABEL
2. Nicknames → MARLBORO
3. Relationship Status → hmm....its complicated
4. Zodiac sign → libra
5. Male or female or transgendered → female.
6. Elementary → PAP. :D
7. Primary → chongzhenh pri :D
8. Secondary → cchms.
10. Hair color → black.
11. Long or short → not short not long
16. Height → LOL. 161/162cm
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes.
18: What do you like about yourself? → nothing. cos i'm plain useless. -.-
19. Piercings → ear piercing? :D
20. Tattoos → no.
21. Righty or lefty → both.

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → WHEN I WAS A BABY. :D
23. First piercing → when i'm like 3 years old?!
24. First best friend → VALERIE.
26. First sport you joined → netball. -.-
27. First pet → fish!
28. First vacation → HK
29. First concert → LOL. none.
30. First crush →hmm....too long to think back

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → nothing. :x cos there is noone at home.
50. Drinking → plain water. -.-
52. I'm about to → sleep :D
53. Listening to → me typing.
55. Waiting for → me to finish this.

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → I SAID I WANT 5....why this question is being asked twice????:D
59. Want to get married? → no idea.
60. Careers in mind? → minister of education.
68. Lips or eyes → eyes :D
69. Hugs or kisses → hugs. i always get it from...girls.contract partners and darlings
70. Shorter or taller → taller.
71. Older or Younger → older.
72. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic. LOL.
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → both.
74. Sensitive or loud → sensitive.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship.
76. Trouble maker or hesitant→ hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → nope.
79. Drank hard liquor → no. wl. i dont want to go turning again
80. Lost glasses/contacts → no.
81. Sex on first date → no. wth.
82. Broken someone's heart → yes.
83. Had your own heart broken → yes. im human.
86. Turned someone down → yeah.
87. Cried when someone died → WHO WOULDN...sadist den will nt cry de lor
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → in a friends kinda way.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → yes.
90. Miracles → yeah.
91. Love at first sight → yes. but i dont think it lasts.
92. Heaven → yeah.
93. Santa Claus → no.
95. Kissing on the first date? → hmmm...
96. Angels → that'd be. cool.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes
98. Who is it? → someone that is special lah duhh.
99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → no. those are bastards and bitches.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → yeah.YAY im done. :DHAHAHA.

15 people!
1) VALERIE
2) JIAAI
3) CELINE
4) DENISE
5) HUICONG
6) ZHIYANG
7) MING SIEW
8) CHERYL 2JT
9) YUJIA
10) CHERYLMINE
11) ANYONE
12) THAT
13) WANTS
14) TO
15) DO

2009-04-11T23:08:00.000-07:00

went to watch xiang sheng with 2BN yesterday. Took pictures some nice 2BN ppl....lets list out okayy....

the first picture: (from first row to second row...left to right): huicong zhiyang seekiang.wang winnie celine xinyu me jillian germaine xinhui denise beehoon

the second pic: germaine celine xinyu me jiaai chengcheng jillian huicong zhiyang seekiang denise germaine.

i just realised tht all the JJHAMZ-CD clique member was in both pictures...soo cool sia...hehe....

the show was nice....kinda cold in there....

hope there is another class gathering again....kinda looking forward to it...hehe....

2009-04-05T01:06:00.000-07:00

All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog.Write the names of 16 friends you can think of in your head,And then answer the questions,Say you're guessing if you don't know,But at least guess on all of them.After doing this,tag your 21 unlucky friends to do the same.

1.Cheryl JT
2. Cherylmine
3. Bee Hoon
4.Xin Hui
5.Jia Ai
6. Yu Jia
7.Estee
8.Sing Yee
9.Zhi Yang
10.Celine
11.Denise
12.Ming Jun
13. Ming Siew
14. Yuan An
15. Wei Yang
16.Hui Cong
17.See Kim
18.Wang Winnie
19.Tan Winnie
20. Stephanie
21.LiShan

1. How did u meet 7 ?( Estee)
School !

2.What would you do if you and 15 had never met ? (Wei Yang)
Hmm..short of 1 pri sch fren in CCHMS

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated ? ( Stephanie and Cheryl)
THEY WILL NVR DATE

4. Have you seen 17 cried ? ( See Kim )
I think i did

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple ?( Xin Hui and Hui Cong )
YES...must xinhui and seekiang better

6.Do you think 11 is attractive ? ( Denise)
Yahhh. very attractive ! :D haha

7. What's 2 favourite colour ? ( Cherylmine )
Err.. All colours ? :D

8. When was the last time you talked to 9 ?-(Zhi Yang)
Last friday...after LIT tutorial

9. What language does 8 speaks ? ( Sing Yee)
loanshark language :D LOL

10. Who is 13 going out with ?( Ming Siew )
haha, yuanan...my cousin ><

11. Would you ever date 17 ? ( See Kim)
hahha, no. cos she's my idol

12. Where does 18 live ? (Wang Winnie )
TAMPINES ! :D or myabe zhenan hse

13. What's the best thing about 4 ?-( Xin Hui )
someone that keeps me happy luhh ! :P

14.What would you like to tell 10 rite now ? ( Celine )
I miss you, IDOL ! ): and SORRY

15. What's the best thing about 20 ?( Stephanie)
Friends forever ! :D

16. Have you ever kiss 2 ? ( Cherylmine)
No?! haha.

17. What's the best memory you have of 5 ? ( Jia Ai )
Ohh ! and her jokes =PPPP hahahha

18. When's the you're gonna see 4 ? (Xin Hui )
Im seeing her tmr (:

19. How is 7 different from 6 ?( Yujia and Estee )
yujia my darling estee my mum

:20. Is 2 pretty ?( Cherylmine)
Damn pretty !

21. What's your 1st impression of 15 ? ( Wei Yang )
like to bully me ! :D

22. How do you meet 3 ?( Bee Hoon )
xinhui the matchmaker (:

23. Is 15 your best friend ? ( Wei yang )
hmm...maybe

24. Do you hate 12 ?( Mingjun )
For what ?haha

25. Have you seen 18 in the last month ?( Wang Winnie)
Yupp ! :D

26. When was the last time you saw 16 ?(Hui Cong)
today ((:

27. Have you been to 5's house ?( Jia Ai)
nopp !

28. When's the next time you'll see 10 ?( Celine)
Monday (:

29. Are you close to 11 ? ( Denise)
Friends lahh and JJHAMZ-CD :D

30. Have you been to the movies with 4 ? (Xin Hui)
NO :(

31. Have you gotten into trouble with 8 ?( Sing Yee )
Yeahh, LOL ! :P

32. Would you give 19 a hug ?(Tan winnie)
if she needs one :D hoho

33. When have you lied to 3 ? (Bee Hoon)
never lie bahh. Idk ><

34. Is 11 good at socializing ?( Denise)
Think so ?haha

35. Do you know a secret about 8 ?( Sing Yee)
maybe?

36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.( Ming jun and Wang Winnie)
They dont know each other. haha

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9 ?(Zhi Yang)
HE IS JJHAMZ-CD gang member Friend! :D

38. What's the worst thing about 6 ?( Yujia)
Too chio lahh ! =PP haha, JK

39. Do you have a crush on 12 ?( Mingjun )
you dare ask this question?!

40. How long have you known 2 ?( Cherylmine)
Since sec 1

41. Does 11 have any girlfriend/boyfriend ?(Denise)
I dun think so.heeh.

42. Have you wanted to punch 1 in the face ?( Cheryl )
Nope! heeh.

43. Have 21 meet your parents ?( Lishan )
no

44. How did you meet 11 ?( Denise )
Same class (:

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3 ?(Bee Hoon)
Yahh. =P

46. Did you live close to 7 ?( Estee )
Nope .haha

47. What's 8 favourite food ?( Sing Yee)
Idk ?? Haha.wadever loansharks likes to eat :D

48. What kind of car does 1 have ?( Cheryl)
A car where she always sleep in in the morning .xP

49. Have you travelled anywhere with 9 ?(Zhi Yang)
class outign and clique outing at escape ^^

50.If you gave 14 a $100, what would she/he spend it on ?-( Yuan an)
Idk ? On bball stuff ? Food?Done ! YAY(:

2009-04-03T02:34:00.000-07:00

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are full of crap.

I fear ...
[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights (if it's really high)
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

total so far: 0

[ ] being touched (If the person is sweaty or something la!)
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ]my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] snow
total so far: 1

[ ] rain
[ ] wind (strong winds)
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes

total so far: 1

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone (it depends on the situation)
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up, old

total so far: 2

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood

total: 2

Am i crazy or something?

2009-04-03T02:17:00.000-07:00

random people can come my blog and rip quizzes. im like freaking bored now.

200. YOUR FULL NAME IS : Mabel Neo Yu Qian
199. I WAS BORN ON : 1 October.
198. MY CELL PHONE COMPANY IS : Sony Ericsson .
196. MY EYE COLOUR IS : Black.
195. MY SHOE SIZE IS : 39
194. MY RING SIZE IS : when i get married i tell u k?
193. MY HEIGHT IS : 160cm.
192. I AM ALLERGIC TO : seafood.
191. I WAS BORN IN : SG, Gleneagles hospital
190. I LIVE IN : SG ! Tampines :D
189. THE LAST BOOK I READ : 然后的然后
188. MY BED IS : in my room
187: ONE THING U HATE ABOUT YOURSELF : being too emotional.
179. MY FAV HOLIDAY IS : in japan.
177.THE LAST THREE CD'S I BOUGHT : idk-.-
176. LAST SONG THAT MADE ME CRY WAS : 留下来
175. ARE YOU TAKEN OR SINGLE : somewhere in the middle.
174. IF TAKEN , BY WHO ?: -.- "
173. DO YOU LIKE BEING TAKEN/SINGLE ?: idk.
170. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT ?: chatting. random texting.
142. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT ?: no.
141. LUCK ?: sometimes.
140. FATE ?: yes.
139. YOURSELF ?: yes, i have to what.
138. ALIENS ?: haha, maybe?!
137. HEAVEN ?: yes. those who adhere by the holy spirit will go to heaven.
136. HELL ?: yes. those who go against the jesus christ will have eternal life in hell.
135. GHOSTS ?: not really.
134. HOROSCOPE ?: not really but i check it, for the fun of it.
133. SOULMATES ?: definitely!
129. HUGS OR KISSES ?: both.
128. DRUNK OR HIGH ? : IM HIGH WHEN IM DRUNK AND DRUNK WHEN IM HIGH.
127. PHONE OR ONLINE ? : both lah :D
126. RED HEADS OR BLACK HAIR ? : black.
125. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES ? : blondes.
124. HOT OR COLD ? : hot.
123. SUMMER OR WINTER ? : winter.
121. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ? : chocolate.
120. DAY OR NIGHT ? : night.
119. ORANGES OR APPLES ? : orange.
118. CURLY OR STRAIGHT HAIR ? : straight. (mine is)

116. ABORTION : is murder.
115. BACKSTABBERS : is someone who cannot be forgiven.
114. PARENTS : do things for our own good.
103. WENT OUT OF TOWN : m'sia?
102. HAD FOOD : just now.
101. SEEN SOMEONE I HAVEN'T SEEN IN AWHILE : yesterday:D
100. CRIED IN FRONT OF SOMEONE ? -.- in fact, a lot of ppl.
99. GREW : yes! :D
90. WHO IS THE DIRTIEST PERSON YOU KNOW ? idk.
89. WHO MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST ? Xin hui
87. THE LAST MOVIE I WATCHED : dunno leh-.-
82. WHAT I DONT UNDERSTAND IS : myself.
80. THE MOST UNSATISFACTORY ANSWER I'VE EVER RECIEVED : forgotten :/
79. SOMETHING I WILL MISS WHEN I LEAVE HOME : my bed.
78. THE THING THAT IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE MOST : A BRAND NEW DAY!
77. THE THING THAT IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IS : not sure.
73. TOMORROW : is a brand new day i do my best :D
72. TODAY : was kinda stressful.
71. NEXT WEEK : is gonna be awesome!
70. NEXT SUMMER : is coming soon.
67. PEOPLE CALL ME : crazy girl. (HEY>:X) Mabel :)
62. THE PERSON WHO KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT ME IS: myself.
60. THE MOST DIFFICULT THING TO DO IS : telling someone how i really feel.
59. I HAVE GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET : not yet.
56. MY ZODIAC SIGN IS : libra :D
55. THE FIRST PERSON I TALKED TO TODAY WAS : mum.
54. FIRST TIME YOU HAD A CRUSH : ahah primary sch. so long :/
53. THE ONE PERSON WHO CANT HIDE THINGS FROM: parents and some besties.
52. LAST TIME SOMEONE SAID SOMETHING YOU WERE THINKING ? tonnes.
51. RIGHT NOW I AM TALKING TO : myself.
50. WHAT IS YOUR DREAM JOB ?: Minister of Education or finance
49. FIRST JOB ?: tcher?
48. I HAVE / WILL GET A JOB AT ? : somewhere i like :D
47. I HAVE THESE PETS : none.
46. I HOPE : that everyone will be happy and free of troubles :D
45. THE WORST SOUND IN THE WORLD : crying.
44. THE PERSON THAT MAKES ME CRY MOST IS : my thoughts.
39. MY GIRLFRIEND IS : sexy hot and cute :D
35. FLORIDA OR HAWAII : BOTH.
33. MY FAV PEICE OF CLOTHING IS : dresses.
32. MY FAV SPORT IS : swimming, vball, bball.
31. LAST TIME I CRIED : three- four weeks ago? cant rmb :/
30. MY FRIENDS ARE : precious people i love so much.
29. MY COMPUTER IS : super addictive
.28. THE SCHOOL I GO TO IS : cchms.
27. LAST PERSON I GOT MAD AT : myself.
22. THE ALL-TIME BEST MOVIE IS : idk.
21. THE ALL TIME BEST THING IN THE WORLD IS : people i love being around me.
20.THE PERSON YOU LIKE IS: him.
19. THE PERSON YOU LOVE IS : him.
18. THE MOST ANNOYING PERSON YOU KNOW IS : kaline.(she say me first..an aye for an eye)
17. I LOSE RESPECT FOR PPL WHO : have no respect for ppl.
16. THE MOVIES I HAVE CRIED AT ARE : none.
15. CLOSEST FRIEND NAME : SEEKIM CHERYLMINE CHERYL YUJIA CELINE FLORENCE. [my beloved besties<3]
13. FAV WEBSITE : facebook.com, blogger.com ,etc.
12. I WANT TO BE : with him all my life.
11.THE WORST PAIN I WAS EVER IN WAS ?: when i lost the true self.
10. MY FAV WORD IS : huh?!
9. MY ROOM IS : green?
8. MY FAVOURITE CELEBRITY IS : idk leh.
5. MY WEAKNESS IS : can be arrogant and anti-social. competitive.
4. WHAT I LIKE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX : character.
3. WHO BROKE YOUR HEART : some ppl.
2. ONE THING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL GREAT IS : talking to someone.
1. YOU FILLED OUT 200 QUESTIONS BECAUSE ?: (omg end liao? so fast?) not sure.out of boredom, i guess.

2009-04-03T02:04:00.000-07:00

A quiz ripped from Lynn's blog. (to revive my blog)

1. What is your CCA?
-> CCHMSCO

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
->Maybe(?) it depends..

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
-> The truth or the lie? the truth is.........i like going to school.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
-> let's see. I would give some of it to my family and relatives, use part of it to 享受

5.Will you fall in love with your best friend?
-> guy best friend of girl best friend. if its guy best friend then maybe but if it s a girl i wun cos i wan her to be happy with a guy

6. Which is more blessed ? Loving someone or being loved?
-> I would say being loved. cos loving someone very tong ku de...hehe :D

7. List out your favourite band.
->i dun really like or hate any band

8. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
->well, human have feelings. so maybe i'll just get emo for a period of time and then just forget about the whole thing.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
-> Hmm...lots but i wun tell.

10. What makes you angry?
-> BN ppl accusing me and den summore hate me for no particular reason?

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
-> A university students studying politics

12. Who is currently the most important PERSON to you?
-> hmm...family.

13. What is the most important thing in your life?
->MY happiness

14. Would your rather be single and rich or married but poor?
->Married but poor. cos husband and wife can work together den become rich.

15. What is your favourite colour?
-> Black Orange

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
->D-E-P-E-N-D-S on the other party oso mah...later he maybe play play only leh?

17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
-> I'd just pick the one who loves me back (?)

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has?
-> It has to depend on how horrible the thing is. If it's really really horrible, probably i will just dao the person or even nvr t talk to him or her

19. What do you want to tell the person you like?
-> I just want to tell you that i love you...hehe

20. Which country you would like to go?
->JAPAN

12th blog

2009-04-03T01:44:00.000-07:00

I counted the number of blogs i have since last time and i found that there was 11 blogs before this. I was like: OMG...i had so many blogs..LOL. But i dun think i changing anymore. Last time change was because i wasn really in good mood recently plus its like i think the events that happened recently is like: 一波未平,一波又起...so its like i kinda unhappy and some is feel sorry for some ppl. So is like, after thanking for so much, and i solved all?! Maybe not all but definitely most are solved. kinda rewind what happened this week...cos i think i nvr blog on this blog before yet...hehe

updating my schedule here....

6 april: CCHMS vs DMN (bball match at AHS)

9 april: 4 schs combined meet. CCHMS vs BRD (bball match at AHS)

Term 2 week 4: Geography test
Biology test
Chinese test

wloves,
Mabel♥